Killing Time is Back! Hiatus Ends; Project Re-boot Dave Begins!

The last picture taken of my wife and myself.
The last picture taken of my wife and myself.

Killing Time is back after a month-long hiatus!  While I’m excited by writing again and getting back to escaping into fantasy worlds aplenty, people have been so kind to me this last month that I wanted to give reality its due one more time before I resume my policy of keeping my personal life out of my writing altogether.  So I’ll begin with an update.  In the 26 days since my wife passed away, I’ve pretty much blown up my life.  I resigned my position, I sold,donated, or tossed most of my possessions and 98% of the ones remaining have been placed into storage.  For the last several years, I’ve taken on the role of care taker and it has been my honor.  My wife was a spectacular person and I can’t even find words to describe to you how much I miss her.  Caretakers fall, kind of by necessity, into a very regimented role and life.  You don’t often deviate from the norm, nor go anywhere or do anything unplanned or spontaneity.  To get though this, to even try to attempt to find another side, I needed to change literally everything I possibly could.

My way of doing things and handling things would had me hermited up in a cave somewhere in the Urals and flagellating myself with sheaves of wheat.  My wife was right 99.9% of the time, so I just asked myself what she’d do and I’ve tried to make myself follow the advice I’d know she’d flick me on the ear and give.  I surrounded myself with friends and family.  There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by since she died when I didn’t see someone to help me pack, distract me or just sit in the room.  I’m changing my surroundings.  I won’t be able to stare at X spot in the apartment or drive past Y restaurant with a great memory, because my end game is a place where I know NOTHING!  Every day for dozens of reasons for the past few years, I have been under tremendous stress to get a hundred things done all while worrying that this life necessities were robbing me of moments with the person that was doing all of this for after all.  That much stress and that much pressure for years and you start to burn out. I was running on fumes in the summer early fall and I just needed some form of relief soon.  Unfortunately, that was about the time my wife’s cancer shifted into its final stages

Everyone talks about the stages of grief, but they talk about them as if you shift through them like you were cruising along a Candyland board made of crappy days.  It doesn’t work like that.  You go from denial to angry to depressed to just a little acceptance right before you find yourself back expecting her to walk around the corner again.  I’m not happy my wife’s dead.  I’m happy she’s out of the pain that made her existence hell.  Selfishly, I want to talk to her a last time.  Ask her if I handled things this last month in  away she’d have wanted and ask to hear her say “I love you” just once more, but I had a decade of moments, grand and touching

She thought Killing Time was a great idea.  She like reading the articles, arguing points of reviews and voting in the polls.  She loved hearing what you all had to say, and she would have been as touched as I was by the responses to her obituary from site users.    She was so happy that it was helpful in helping me to deal with her disease and  more thrilled that I’m going to turn to it again to try to begin to heal after her death.  I am traveling with my faithful pug Frodo.  This week we’re in the Richmond area and I’ll keep you updated in the KT column on Thursdays as to where Frodo and I are and how we’re coping.  Thank you so much to all my friends and family.  Thank you for the cards and emails.  Thank you for every thoughtful word and prayer here, by email, Tweet, Facebook message, etc.  Each one was special to me and I didn’t respond directly, it’s not because I wasn’t touched.

But, as this is my only job right now, I’ve got a lot of articles to write, media to review, and just generally try to get back to having fun while I’m killing time.  Thanks for waiting for me and thanks for the support..

Dave  &  Frodo the Wonder Pug

Trailer Time: Avengers Age of Ultron Trailer #1 (2015) Ultron, Hulkbuster Thowdown and MORE!

It’s November; a new month with new possibilities and your favorite online source for all things geekish has returned.  We’ll do a return column separate to this, but even while I was holed up in a cabin deep in the woods of Do Not Disturbia, word of great doings in both the MCU and DCCU drifted through the opening of my cavern of solitude.  While, we’re not going to go back through everything that happened in October, an examination of the goings and doings in Marvel and DC movie land is a must.

THAT can wait another day or so though, because here it its: the first trailer for Joss Whedon’s finale to MCU Phase 2 – Avengers: Age of Ultron.  Sequels usually go darker, but WOW, do things look like bad for Marvel’s top team.  I wasn’t sure how much Spader would actually BE in Ultron (answer: he’s in full Blacklist form).  I knew about the Hulkbuster fight from leaked concept art, but nothing prepares you seeing clips from the battle royale.  So much to see and to take in and I’m sorry it’s a bit late in going up on the site, but we’re back and we’ll do a full “Return from Hiatus” piece later today.  I’ve missed you, time stabbers.  ASSEMBLE ONCE MORE!
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